Lets all say 'Fuck Instagram'


Photography : Sam Mosquera

Coat : Charity Shop
Roll Neck : Muji
501 Levis : Vintage
70's Converse : Offspring
Earrings : Milktooth
Bag : Vintage
(alternatives linked below)

I feel like I haven't wrote blog posts consistently in so long that I almost don't know where you're meant to start with them. Hi, hello, im back, here's another post of my ramblings? See, it's weird right? It's funny because this coincidentally lead me to write another post about consistancy, but more on that another time. I'm here to share some thoughts on Instagram, well more about how we document our lives on social media and how much it's changing.

Recently my boyfriend and I have been discussing the wonderful yet horrible app that is Instagram and how much it's impacted both of our lives. Everyone and their mum's are talking about their love / hate relationship with it. I mean it is such an incredible tool to share day to day activities, follow your fave celebs and see what's going in the world, I even met Sam on there! But it sometimes leads to getting so caught up in what's 'perfect' and whether certain photos will actually fit in with your feed, that it's easy to loose sight in what the app was initially made for.

Things change and develop so it's obvious that Instagram has gotten bigger and bigger over the past few years. I would say bigger and better here but we all know we're fighting a losing battle with the creaters of the app tbh. What's bothering me is that when I look back and pretty much stalk my own profile, is realising how much I've changed. I was having a huge Instagram clear out, archiving images and unfollowing people that didn't bring joy to my feed; I would definitely recommend because it makes scrolling so much nicer, at the end of the day it's your account - you ain't obliged to follow anyone that doesn't inspire, lift you or bring you any joy. Anyway, what I noticed is how much my photography and personal style has changed through out the years of being part of instagram.

From living in Cardiff in 2014, Manchester 2015, moving to London in 2016 for my placement year, leading right back to Manchester, I could see that being younger and more care free, the days before blogging and instagram were as big as they are now, I was uploading what I wanted, when I wanted. I couldn't give two fucks about the perfect posting times, I was living in the moment and uploading on the go (times before drafts, scary I know). But having this detox and looking into my recent uploads made me realise that I hated what I was I sharing. I'd stopped posting photos of my uni work, my drawings, my try on session in changing rooms, what I had at costa that one time; everything has to look perfect, reflecting your style and philosophy. I got caught into the need for everything to look consistent and it turns out it just wasn't working for me.

The latest post on this blog (read here) has given an insight into the direction of this blog, social media as well as my personal goals. I wanna go back to my old ways, a bit more care- free and laid back. I wanna stay creative and share this with you guys.  At the end of the day I know it's only a social media app, it's a stupid first world problem, but I needed to get it off my chest and talk about it.

I mean Instagram fucks us over with the algorithm as it is, so why not just post what you want anyway? 

C x

Self identity and Who I want to be


Jacket : Charity
Roll neck : Primark
501 Levis : Pop Boutique
Church Boots : Dr Martens
Beret : Pop Boutique 

Photography : Sam Mosquera

In this post I kind of wanted to talk about my dissertation / research topic. I’m not going to bore you with the 8,000 words my dissertation requires so don’t worry, but it’s a topic I do find interesting and wanted to discuss some of my thoughts on this lil space of mine. I also think it works quite nicely as the first major post of the year (if I do say so myself).

Through social media (such as instagram, twitter and the blogging world), it’s no shock that we are all in some way influenced by what each other is getting up to. We are influenced by what others wear, where they go to eat and where they do their weekly shopping -  but my question is 'how does this then impact our own personal identity and real life choices?'.  Now I’m not writing this post to crack the answer and solve all identity crises but more to share my thoughts on it.
To put it in context, I joined the blogging world years ago after seeing two Danish sisters start their own blog sharing what they wore on the weekends and outside of what they wore to school. I thought it was one the most inspirational and greatest ideas ever, giving me that sense of, ‘This is what I want to do too'. Even as a little girl I would be drawing clothes that would be for make-believe shops I had invented and imagined the latest celebs wearing them to music award events. So it’s no surprise I wanted to join the world of blogging as well as working my way to a fashion design degree.

After ‘blogging’ on and off for so long and being the age I am, I do recognise being heavily influenced by what are others are doing and I’m starting to make sense of why I want to carry on. Finding a sense of personal identity in the way we dress has become so important in portraying an ideal image of who you are on the internet. But what if I don’t want that? I’ve realized that I’m not gonna have my style figured out for a long time and that’s okay, I’m here to document it and laugh at myself along the way. After Chloe’s post about who she wants to be on the internet it spoke true to me that, yeah I’m not the next big star, but I’m doing this for me. I like writing (even if its shite half the time) and I like styling, taking photos and sharing my amazing vintage purchases, so that’s why I’m here.

I follow so many incredible females (and the occasional male) and to be honest, I am happy to be influenced by them. To make me question my own fashion choices; 'Would I really like that if I hadn't seen it on her first' or 'Did I just need to see someone else styling it in a new and funky way that screams ‘oh my god yas this is what I needed’'. The point is, it's okay not to like everything you see other people doing, it’s okay to have an opinion, to help inform your own decisions on what you do like, and don't like. It's okay to be and do what you want to do. 

Catch me in a couple of weeks when I’m moaning about some quarter life crisis I seem to be continuously going through.

C x

2018 Bucket List


Photography by my wonderful Boyfriend Sam (mosquerasam on instagram)

I'm writing this 7 days into the new year which is typical of me when it comes to blogging. I originally had a post pre-written that reflected on 2017; what had happened, what I'd learnt, what I was planning on doing next... but there was this omnious vibe to it all, as I wasn't in an great mental space at the time. Now, I'm not saying I didn't have an incredble Christmas and New Years, because I did. I  was able to switch off, relax and spend time with my amazing family and boyfriend, it was just the idea of going back to uni and facing reality that really didn't sound very inviting to me.

So, instead of posting something I knew I would potentially later regret (I've posted plenty of MH related pieces so I know when something feels right, and when something doesn't), I decided to delete it entirely and just carry on entering the new year, focusing on me and what I needed. Saying all that, it would be weird not to acknolwedge that we have now entered 2018 without some kind of blog post. 

Without further ado, I want to share 5 things I want to achieve in the next 12 months. There will be  none of that, 'I will be a better person', 'I'll stop eating less chocolate', 'I'll do a facemask every week without fail', yada yada... because I'll only be setting myself up for failure.

Let's face it, we don't need anymore of that in our lives. Instead, I want to look at goals I can set myself. I want to try discover what is it that I really want to get out of the near future. So, after awhile spent thinking, I came up with a couple of ideas.

1. Go on Holiday
Last year I was lucky enough to go on two holidays with my family. Berlin was the first trip and was a present for myself and my sister's birthday and it was so much fun exploring a new city - especially when it's a city that I've wanted to visit for a while. Secondly we went to Devon during the summer for my dads birthday, which again I have incredibly fond memories of.

This year I want to make sure I visit somewhere new again. As a family we're planning to visit somewhere in Europe once more as we had such a good time in Berlin. Sam and I are hopefully planning to visit Lisbon in the summer as we both need a relaxing sunny break, plus we've both wanted to go for ages. I'd also like to go away somewhere with my best friend Soph; come June we'll have both finished at uni so we deserve a holiday together after the trauma of final year!

2. Buy some big girl boots
Okay in the grand scheme of things, this isn't a major goal but it's one I want to achieve nonetheless. It's hard not to be influenced by bloggers and instagram users in this day and age, so it's no surprise I want to experiement with my style and try new things (see an upcoming post about this soon). On my list of things I want - alongside many other things - is a pair of grown up boots. I'm talking mid-calf, slight heel, maybe in a snakeskin or something a bit different! I'm a bit fussy ain't I.

3. Graduate and get a job
This is quite a big and important goal that I would like to achieve. Over the next few months I will be battling to hell and back with my final year at university... so goodbye positive mental health, sleep and social life, because there ain't time for you round here at the moment! If I can just make it through the next 4 months, then I can see graduation at the end of the tunnel.

I also dream of finding a graduate job at the end of it all - so fingers crossed on that too, because right now I'm not really sure what it is that I want to do!

4. Learn how to cook
Now, I'm not saying that I can't cook, because in layman's terms I can, I just can't do it very well or confidentally. 2018 will be the year (well, maybe the latter of the year), that I become a more confident cook and can tackle something a little more sophisticated than Quorn Nuggets and Oven Chips!!

5. Create more
I have to admit the last 2 points are more 'develop through the year goals', whereas, the other 3 are more fixed-term goals. Anyway, the final ambition is to create more. I'm leaving this broad as I want to experiement with different things; weaving, painting, photography, blogging, drawing. Whilst I'm studying fashion at university I have the opportunity to work creatively all year, however, once I begin a 'real life' full-time job, I won't have this opportunity and freedom as often - so I want to remember to remain creative and to consistently be working on new and exciting projects.

I hope this has given you some insight into my year ahead, it may have even given you some ideas for your own goals, or perhaps it's helped you decide 'fuck resolutions, I'm doing it my way'. Either way, I wish everyone the best 2018, we're in this together.

C x

Major Autumnal Vibes


Coat : Henry Holland  (similar)
Jumper : Urban Outfitters (other colour)
Jeans : Vintage Levi's (new)
These have to be some of the most autumnal (outfit) photos I have ever seen / modeled for / participated in and I’m loving it. I am definitely feeling the colours of my leopard print coat with the transitioning leaves and outdoorsy / greenhouse vibes: then with the green, grey and denim to tie it all together, I must say I’m very happy with the combo.

We (my boyfriend and I) took these photos whilst visiting Quarry Bank Mill to help with my most current university project where I focused on the Victorian Era. But whilst we were there, we obviously took the opportunity to shoot in this beautiful place (thank you Sam for being a major whiz behind the camera).

I’m going to wrap this post up here as I’ve recently been in conflict with long personal posts vs short, snappy, 'tell me where your top is from' posts. I haven’t got a problem with either; in fact I love reading both so I think it’s nice to have balance, which is something I am working on and considering. What do I want from this, what do I want to talk about, how do I want to present myself? It’s probably not that deep but you get the idea.

I’m sure I’ll be back soon with a long and boring post about style and finding out who I am, because when am I not writing about those subjects?

C x


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